Out of misery

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pages from my diary

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cant wait to see Xmen3!!

Had a cool night watching the state of orgin football game last night with THE BOYS last night despite the fact 3 out of 4 of us have no idea what's going on. Admittedly we probably turned up just to blow some steam, drink some beer and eat potato chips.
Turned out to be a pretty good night, one thing about working boys is you stop hanging out on weekday nights so it was a welcomed changed.
The game itself was a mixture of exciting moments and moments when we just tuned off and discussed the Xmen mythology and advantages of long term investments in the stock market.
Now that i think about it we are such geeks, geeks growing up and starting our own little investment portfolios but geeks nonetheless.

Decided to spoil myself by putting down a deposit for my very first bass effects pedal after trying out a sobbat bass drive breaker. It's going to cost quite a bit but when the boost and fuzz were so clean and it was a clinch when I played zero by smashing pumpkins and the sound was like i didn't need a the guitar there... haha

Now that i've pretty much nailed the whole cafe job thing and may well be able to do everything with my eyes closed, I've been slowing down a bit to get to know everyone around me. It's amazing how a single department store can house so many different types of people. It's almost criminal not to describe some of them i think.
The tired looking butchers who somehow knew my name long before i could be bothered knowing theirs, these guys are so cool... when i bought a kg of rump steak from them they gave me 1.5
The various girls working cosmetics and women fashion who despite selling mostly the same things, range from the worldly slightly bitter women who demand service and hide beneath masks of makeup and scent to the incredibly nice and cheerful girls who always make up for my lack of words in a converstaion.
The security and service staff who despite their rules and shortcomings are a whole lot of caring and family. From being more awake than me at 9am to giving me first aid when my hand was bleeding and covered in shattered glass.
anyway guess this is another family i'm in for now...

This weekend's theme was family as I tried to spend some extra time with Mum, Simone and Vince. An intereting encounter happened when we bumped into a girl who was wearing the exact same outfit as her. I could swear there was tension sparkling in the air as they sized each other out... who's outfit fits better, who's cuter, who's prettier... haha maybe it was just my imagination but when i said "Simone, I think you lost.."
She snapped back "Why? What makes you think that?"

Been struggling to think of anything remotely interesting to write about in my life. Sometimes it feels like a clot has formed and all my drive and focus is gone. Especially since it's like I'm back at square 1 with my pursuits. No band, no support, no movement and just struggling to stay afloat above tedium. Funny how life sometimes feels so still and stale and yet I know there's a deeper force guiding me along... telling me to slow down and smell the wet dirt that is this moment.

When your life feels like thrombosis
It chokes you
that you can't even bleed
but you're alive

hot damn
got death cab for cutie tickets going to to watch them in july sometime
work is going well very tiring though working 5,6 days a week and around 10 hours a day
cant wait to have a holiday ...